kailey

&& its time to start a new LJ.
hopefully one day I'll visit it again, and when the time is right, patrick and I will sit down and read this one together.

Wow, its been 3 weeks since I've last updated.
right now I'm feeling quite comtemplative.
and oh so sore.

I'm ready for saturdays guard contest atleast.

I'm considering of starting a new live journal, lol.

So its been about a week since I last updated? I think, whatever.

Whats new? Ah, this weekend.

Friday I'm having Kassie over (to stay the night) and Patrick (the boyfriend)
Saturday we have winterguard competition, I preform my solo
Sunday I'm going shopping with Patrick and his mom for his prom stuff

I'm really hoping to improve my solo score, so hopefully I will get a 2 this time?? I got a 3 last time. But I'm more prepared this time, both mentally, and I have more work written tambien.

I guess now I'm going to get off the computer, I'm thirsty.

What year did you start spinning? 04/05

How many seasons of winter have you been in? This is my first

Ever done marching band? hells yeah

How many friends do you have because of guard? At least 16.

Can you do a toss turn around on Flag? nope

Can you do it on Rifle or Sabre? Not yet. Not even close.

Have any nicknames that are just from guard? not really

How many times have you been to WGI Champs? None

Ever been in Finals? No.

Ever gotten over 90 in WGI? No

What are you best at? flag

What is your favorite: DCA, DCI, Winterguard, or Marching band? Marching band fo sho. I love the tubas and boners.

Who do you like better: James Logan or Avon? what?

What world class colorguard would you do anything to be in? Idk

How many flags, rifles, sabers, uniforms, etc do you still have? 2 uniforms, 2 flags, 1 swing flag, 1 rifle, 1 set of wings, gloves, and the marching band hat, guantlets, and citation cord, and hat box

Ever had to get x-rays because of something you did in guard? nope

How many blood blisters have you gotten from spinning your ass off? eh, none really.

Do you have ADD when learning drill or going over something a hundred times? oh yeah

Does the Rainbow guard make you cry? what?

Do you have guard parents that do just as much for you as their own? Kinda.... yeah

Ever gone broke because this shit is just so addicting its worse than drugs? oh yesh.

When an instructor says One More Time do you cry a little inside because you know that its ten more times? Yep.

Ever dated a drummer? Nope. a bassoonist, now thats a different story.

Ever been run over by a corps/band member during a show? Nope

Have you ever been hit by someone elses equipment during practice or show? nah

Ever wanted to hit them back? nope

Are all your practice clothes black? most of em

Do you think you own more dance clothes than a professional dancer? Not really

What uniform is your favorite ever? That I have worn? Haha, the one I picked out and bought for my solo. its like a dress with high slits. black, its beautiful.

If you broke your leg the day before finals what would you do? Knowing my dumbass, I'd probably still preform. I sprained my leg before a really important marching season contest, and I still preformed.

results from the first show of the season, yesterday, at burbank high school.

team - 7 out of 8 guards.

solo - 3 on a scale of 4 (1 = best, 4 = worst)

and I was able to fit into the uniform, lol.

I love this picture, its just so cute.
I had to share.

whoo! I'm eating cookie dough.
I'll never fit into my uniform now.
:)

Dear you,

Hahahahaha<3
this morning was great, minus all the people asking us that one question....
and stop looking at me when they do! Gee...So, I think, next time I'm sitting on your lap and holding your hand like that, I'm totally going to come with the answer, "Yeah, so what?"
Screw this not answering shit.

I completely want nothing more than to sit on your lap like I did today, and hold you hands, or have you wrap your arms around, or both, at the same time. <3

and it completely didn't bother me that it was in the band hall. I actually kinda liked it.

and don't worry about booger, or what he said. He did the same thing to my ex. (god, it feels good to say it...) Hahaha. Oh, he's my ex, and I'm so fawking over him. <3.

so, yeah, I don't know where I'm going with this....
but thanks for the necklace.
And thanks for putting it on me.
<3

Now, get online or something,
because I want to talk.
or be in your arms, but that will come later.

That was fun.
I wish I could play oboe...lol, and had one to keep clean.

..But I do keep my flute clean!
:)

whoot!!!
so I've got my first segment of work written! 2 more to go.
I think the middle will be the hardest to write, maybe not.

Gotta go.
<3

wow. after going through and reading my journal, I realize that I've grown up even more. Thats good, I guess?

So I'm working really hard on my language. I haven't physically said the "F" word in about a week, though I've typed it out, lol.

Whoo.

now I just need to grow up and start applying for college and scholarships and junk of that sort.


I dont know if I really want to go to college.
whats the point?

deeh, I know the answer to that.

college education = better job = more money = better lifestyle.

deeh, I need to quit dreaming so much. thats all I do.
Dream + spin
Dream + play
Dream + not pay attention in class = bad grades = less likely to get into a good college = ??

Deeh.

I'm smarttt. I know it. I just need to quit dreaming when I should be paying attention.
but its so harddd.

meh. I guess I'm gonna go sleep.
or read grays anatomy.

Kailey = nerdd.
deeh.

Oh my gawd, where to begin!!!! where to begin? Its been so long since I've been on.

Uhm, lets seee. I'm totally and officially over Carlos now. I own!!!!

uhh, whats on my mind right now??
Hm, I have an essay I still need to write.
I have a solo routine I need to write.
I'm bored.

Uhhm....post more later. going to go through my journal and read it all.

Oh, Durn.

This school year is almost over it seems. And every day has brought something different. Whether it good or bad, it seems everyday has been a journey, and oh, how I have learned, oh, how I've continued to change. Through it all though, I still love Carlos.

I have plans in mind regarding him, but not for some time now.

So, in the mean time, I have decided that I am going to try to move on....my first big step is taking a friend to prom with me.
I think its a good thing to do.
Now, I just need to find a cute way to do it, lol.

I want to join revolution drum corps, so bad!!!
omg!

Gah! I just need to come up with $115 dollars by november 23rd,
and figure out what the fuck a peggy spin is.

I honestly think I'm bi-polar. Or multiple personality...

Read my about me section of my myspace, newly updated :

"I'm Kailey. My favorite color is black, it symbolizes so much. Mystery, royalty, pure beauty.....Music is one of the greatest things to happen to me. I'm a beginner band student, I play flute. It's one of the greatest feelings in the world to feel the keys below your fingers as you produce a beautiful sound. I like what you would call rock, and classic rock, and also piano, oboe, and flute (of course, lol) Color Guard is my passion. The art, the beauty of spinning, twirling, tossing, and catching a flag while dancing is simply amazing and beautiful. My frustrations leave my body through a 6 foot pole with pretty fabric. Writing is great too....you can express so much with a pen in your hand. Sometimes I can be loud, I have a different (and sometimes dirty) sense of humor, and I will discuss anything and tell you how it is. I'm really a great, open minded person, and I promise if you get to know me, you will probably love me. ♥"

Maybe its just that winter is finally starting to roll around and I'm coming out of my.....shell(?) for lack of a better word.

Carlos has a beautiful coat. Long, black of course. Wool, I think.
I just wonder what happened to the one he used to wear. The one I would snuggle up in.
Black suede with inside breast pockets, it always smelled so nice.

...I really want to dress up tommorrow, something nice. Hmmm....

I finally told this one guy how I felt about him...I'm glad the way it worked out. I know who I truly love.

I'm going to put my band back on. My silver "forever/purity" band. Its beautiful.
And perhaps take down the crystal cup.....I sound as if I'm with him....no, its just that I truly love him. Him, his personality, his beliefs, his looks, his mystery, his beauty, his strenght, all hidden beneath that beautiful black coat, and under that large black umbrella.

Oh my. There is so much on my mind. So much I want to say. So much I've been longing for lately.

So Friday was our first charter bus away game. If that makes sense. It was okay, I guess....
The ride down there was okay, even though I kinda got dissed, it was still fun. then our bus broke down...so we had to wait till the kids from bus one got dropped off, then it came to get us and take us to the stadium.

...Thats when it started getting crappy.

starting with the bus, the the fact that I messed up my uniform. (I'm just glad its a red unifrom.....) so that, and the fact that I was on it...was making me pissy. So I didn't really feel like playing in the stands. My performance sucked.



but,we made a joke...


look, I'm Bi....sectional.





lol.

So I just heard the utter most disgusting peice of "chisme" about the lock in.

Supposedly, there was some hanky panky going on...in the middle of the damn band hall. Not even in a practice room, the band hall, for god's sake. Gross.


In other news.....lol.

So they say he's in to me.
I wish he'd just ask me out already.

Ugh.
I'm so utterly confused.
So there is this one guy. I think about him alot. Alot, alot.
But I think he may just be a lost cause.
But there has to be some reason he's in my life.

Then there is this other guy. I hate him. But at the same time, he so god damned cute. I just wanna bang him. Oh!
I honestly think he still loves me. Why else would he be wearing that band?

:]